Diary of a love fool...

Broken sleep last night. Gave up at 3:45am. Worked in Wycombe today. 1st date with L tonight. Lied about his age. Had cheated (or been tempted to) in every relationship he’s had. Kissed me - not great. Too handsy; tried to grope my boobs. Not interested in seeing him again.

Slept well, woke at 5:30am. Weird old day at work. Quite a few peole off. J got very upset about some life stuff. S told us his mum has breast cancer. Went to the shop on the way home from work, bought 2 chocolate bars and ate them both. Feeling very heavy and bloated. Period due in 7 days.

Slept ok, woke up at 6am D went back to work today, dropped her off at 8am then went to the gym where I incline walked for an hour while watching You People on Netflix. Came home and had a massive deep clean of the house. Nothing exciting happened.

Took half a sleeping tablet and used some of my Christmas present from S last night. Slept right through until 8am 🥳 D was really unwell and called in sick to work, so stayed home and I made her her cosy. Wanted maccies so went for a drive through, but other than that, a very uneventful and unproductive day.

Slept ok for no aids. Always wake up at 5:30am even when I know I need more sleep. Annoying. D is home tonight for the weekend ♥️ Worked from home today - got so much done; didn’t close my laptop until after 11pm. H apologised for blowing me out, he got quite a long reply from me about his general crapness and he didn’t bother to respond. Another one bites the dust I guess. Not that arsed tbh.

Used Sarah’s Christmas present before bed last night. Slept really well. Disturbed at 5:30am so started to stretch - gave myself the most outrageous leg cramp in my left calf so wa fully awake very absruptly. Worked in Wycombe today, loooong meeting.  Was supposed to meet up with H in the evening, but he cancelled. No apology, no suggestion of a reschedule. Don’t think that was intentional on his part; I think he’s absolutely shite at both communicating and dating. Or perhaps I’m deluded 🤷🏼‍♀️